27 November.

I don't have anything to write.. it's a sad day, though it was not suppose to be. I waited for this day from long. No, it's not my birthday or some is company is coming with great profile or perhaps of great significance, for i haven't done anything that significant. It's a day when i complete 1 year with my boyfriend. My longest relationship. it's not that i have had number of relationships, it's the first, but I can never imagine being with someone for so long. It's monotonous. And after 1 year I feel,It's been fun and a learning experience. you get to know someone so different from you, very few things in common still walking besides you each day! Truly it's magical. love has it's own charm, but it's different from being relationship. But for me both go side by side, if you love him, you have to be with him.. if you don't, then just move out. I am happy, i love him, but it's not just love that makes a relation work, it's friendship, it's sacrifice, dedication and so many things which i can't even understand in this 1 year. One thing i have realised is that I am not made for relations, they are too heavy. Maybe i am like those vamps in Ekta kapoor serials who don't value relations and people.. but i don't think about being bad or good, I have stopped acting like goody goody, all i think about is peace and happiness which i can get without hurting other; but that's contradictory!

The one year which i spent with V. is one of the most memorable time in my life. he is good, patient ( a Little), flexible( for i keep trying to change somethings in him), intelligent and sensitive and loving. The thing that i love about him is, he is passionate about whatever he does, including people. It's been him who has made this relation work! for i am a looser.
I don't know what i am writing, but i definitely know why i am. I feel good when i write, it is such a relief to say all that is there in your heart, Without waiting in your complicated world, for someone to listen and understand!
Today I don't know what i want from life, where i want to go, what i want to do
and it's not my age to know all these things! look, now when i am at the end of this post, i realise it's OK to be sad, to be confused because one day i will be happy and confident!:)