I don't have anything to write.. it's a sad day, though it was not suppose to be. I waited for this day from long. No, it's not my birthday or some is company is coming with great profile or perhaps of great significance, for i haven't done anything that significant. It's a day when i complete 1 year with my boyfriend. My longest relationship. it's not that i have had number of relationships, it's the first, but I can never imagine being with someone for so long. It's monotonous. And after 1 year I feel,It's been fun and a learning experience. you get to know someone so different from you, very few things in common still walking besides you each day! Truly it's magical. love has it's own charm, but it's different from being relationship. But for me both go side by side, if you love him, you have to be with him.. if you don't, then just move out. I am happy, i love him, but it's not just love that makes a relation work, it's friendship, it's sacrifice, dedication and so many things which i can't even understand in this 1 year. One thing i have realised is that I am not made for relations, they are too heavy. Maybe i am like those vamps in Ekta kapoor serials who don't value relations and people.. but i don't think about being bad or good, I have stopped acting like goody goody, all i think about is peace and happiness which i can get without hurting other; but that's contradictory!
The one year which i spent with V. is one of the most memorable time in my life. he is good, patient ( a Little), flexible( for i keep trying to change somethings in him), intelligent and sensitive and loving. The thing that i love about him is, he is passionate about whatever he does, including people. It's been him who has made this relation work! for i am a looser.
I don't know what i am writing, but i definitely know why i am. I feel good when i write, it is such a relief to say all that is there in your heart, Without waiting in your complicated world, for someone to listen and understand!
Today I don't know what i want from life, where i want to go, what i want to do
and it's not my age to know all these things! look, now when i am at the end of this post, i realise it's OK to be sad, to be confused because one day i will be happy and confident!:)
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Friday, November 19, 2010
Placements
Hey Bhagwaan kal saadi na peh ni pade.., the days begin with these prayers. I get up, rush to the second floor bathroom, though i am stay at third floor; because on our floor, every body is a late latif and takes average time of 1 hour in taking bath , it becomes practically impossible to get ready on time. Today an insurance company was comming, we all knew thatthere is only 1 post for HR students and cut throat competition. i woke up at 8, as usual never on time, somehow i got ready. It was a big day, 6 lakhs and hardcore HR profile means alot.
we attended the ppt. and then got ready for our group discussion, we were been told by the company guy to talk and make our points in GD, for if we don't, we'll not be selected. We all knew in advance, who all are going to be selected, for it was pre decided. The company HR guy, (college alumni)was friends with one of my class mate,. Miss N. Trust me,all she has is a litle talking skills, when nerveous are also lost!
Still, i believed that God is there and if i am good, no one can tale it away from me. Everything went well, and i was hopeful wen i came out of the GD round, i saw a grin on Miss N's face, for she couldn't contribute much to the GD. i was satisfyed and knew somewhere in heart that i would make my way to interview round. I told V. that we'll be going for Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows if i could not break through and lo! results were announced, my ears were waiting desperately to hear my name, but i raealised in seconds that it was not my day.. Another day gone and with it took hope, strength and happiness, Felt like Dementors kiss. it became very difficult to control and before people see me crying like a child, whose toffee was snached i made my way up to the hostel.
It took me a litle time to overcome the failure, but i was praised by all my friends for my performance, which gave me a morale boost, i went for the movie with V. and enjoyed the day. at the end, i reinstated my faith in God, for i know he see everything but waits and one day i will get my share. i don't know when will i sit for next company, but i know one thing "Girte hain ghudsawar hi maidan-e-jung mein, woh tifl kya girega jo ghutno ke bal chale." :) bby for now.
we attended the ppt. and then got ready for our group discussion, we were been told by the company guy to talk and make our points in GD, for if we don't, we'll not be selected. We all knew in advance, who all are going to be selected, for it was pre decided. The company HR guy, (college alumni)was friends with one of my class mate,. Miss N. Trust me,all she has is a litle talking skills, when nerveous are also lost!
Still, i believed that God is there and if i am good, no one can tale it away from me. Everything went well, and i was hopeful wen i came out of the GD round, i saw a grin on Miss N's face, for she couldn't contribute much to the GD. i was satisfyed and knew somewhere in heart that i would make my way to interview round. I told V. that we'll be going for Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows if i could not break through and lo! results were announced, my ears were waiting desperately to hear my name, but i raealised in seconds that it was not my day.. Another day gone and with it took hope, strength and happiness, Felt like Dementors kiss. it became very difficult to control and before people see me crying like a child, whose toffee was snached i made my way up to the hostel.
It took me a litle time to overcome the failure, but i was praised by all my friends for my performance, which gave me a morale boost, i went for the movie with V. and enjoyed the day. at the end, i reinstated my faith in God, for i know he see everything but waits and one day i will get my share. i don't know when will i sit for next company, but i know one thing "Girte hain ghudsawar hi maidan-e-jung mein, woh tifl kya girega jo ghutno ke bal chale." :) bby for now.
Being ME..
Hi,as it's my first post, before i begin i must introduce myself. First of all i really don't know what kind of specie i am , m a weird person.. no wonder i find difficulty in writing somethng on these Social Networking sites and Interviews. Still, i'll try for it becomes really boring to read something about someone, whom you don't know a thing about. I am litle stupid, little irritating, someone who talks alot, becomes hyper nerveous at times, childish and yes there is something i can say i have which makes me different; I am honest. Talking about honesty, it doesnt come naturally, it comes with time, comes with failure, comes with alot of things which makes one think that it's not worth to have!
Ok, enough of self praise. Thats me!A lil self obsessed too.. being so good, i prefer to stay grounded, because for me that is being Human!
Hi,as it's my first post, before i begin i must introduce myself. First of all i really don't know what kind of specie i am , m a weird person.. no wonder i find difficulty in writing somethng on these Social Networking sites and Interviews. Still, i'll try for it becomes really boring to read something about someone, whom you don't know a thing about. I am litle stupid, little irritating, someone who talks alot, becomes hyper nerveous at times, childish and yes there is something i can say i have which makes me different; I am honest. Talking about honesty, it doesnt come naturally, it comes with time, comes with failure, comes with alot of things which makes one think that it's not worth to have!
Ok, enough of self praise. Thats me!A lil self obsessed too.. being so good, i prefer to stay grounded, because for me that is being Human!
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